Guest Post: Veggies By The Tree

*Since losing Brooklyn, I have been accessing lots of online resources to help me cope and get through each day. I have been following a couple of blogs and websites specifically for pregnancy and infant loss. These resources have been helpful for normalizing some of the feelings and thoughts I am experiencing. It also helps to know that others out there know what this deep loss feels like. But something I have noticed, is that there are not a lot of resources to help fathers, grandparents, friends, and other people affected by the loss of a precious baby. One of the blog sites I follow, the Mom actually has guest posts once in a while where she gets her mom, sister, husband, and best friend to write something about how the loss of their daughter has affected them. This has been so helpful for me. It has helped me understand that the loss of Brooklyn reaches far beyond just Derek and I. There are many others mourning with us, who need just as much support as we do. 

I have decided to start doing the same thing! I hope this is helpful for other Mama's and is a form of support for grandparents, fathers, siblings, and friends experiencing this kind of loss too. 

The first guest post is from my Mum. She is wonderful, and a beautiful writer. This is a poem she wrote for Brooklyn called "Veggies by the Tree". *

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Veggies by the tI have been ree 

"It’s definitely not what I thought it would be, 

Brooklyn and Granny and veggies by the tree. 

I dreamed of the time we would spend –you and me 

Watching the veggies while you sat on my knee. 

I gathered the collection of videos and books, 

Awaiting the day that you would take a look. 

I dreamt of being better, better than I was with your Mum 

I imagined you being so excited when it was time to come 

To stay at crazy Grannies house and sing those Jesus songs, 

To laugh and play and ride the trolley and cuddle in my bed, 

I thought of the many things we would do  

As much as would fit in my head. 

But you were much too perfect  

Too perfect for this world 

Jesus cuddles with you now 

My beautiful little girl. 

For now I have to settle for veggies by the tree, 

Brooklyn and Granny – yes just you and me 

Just not the way I wanted it 

But it’s the way it has to be."

Miss you Brookie Love and cuddles Granny