Tuesday, 22 April 2014

Perspective

In her short little life, our daughter has taught me so much.

My perspective on life has been turned completely upside down.

The past few weeks, I have been reflecting a lot on my pregnancy. I have been thinking specifically about all of the things that I used to focus on. I spent so much time researching the best and safest car seat, stroller, sling and carrier, finding the nicest looking crib, organizing the nursery to look perfect, and picking out the cutest little outfits. I can vividly remember feeling stressed about deciding which high chair to put on the registry. It's funny the things that we focus our attention on...

I have come to realize that all of these things don't matter. I wish I would have spent more time enjoying ever moment of my pregnancy. I wish I did not want so badly for my pregnancy to be over, and instead took the time to enjoy every single movement, hiccup, and kick. I wish I would have talked to our daughter more. I wish I would have spent less time worrying about when she would arrive, and instead enjoyed every moment I had her inside of me. And I wish I would have spent more time forming a bond and connection with her.

Things are things. But people matter. If I were given the chance to go back, I would have spent less time researching baby things and focused more on loving our daughter and investing in my relationship with her father.

Brooklyn has already taught us so much about life. And I know that as we continue reflect and work through this grieving process, she will continue to remind us to focus on things that actually matter.

2 comments:

  1. Hi Fiona,
    I'm Rebecca Kopczyk's sister-in-law, and your story has touched me so much. I think about you daily, and often reread your posts. You're unbelievably brave, and truly a strong woman.
    This post keeps coming to mind as I'm currently pregnant. I often find myself dwelling on the uncomfortableness of pregnancy, and I quickly remind myself of the blessing growing inside. You've inspired me to read to my belly more often, and to enjoy every day as a blessing.
    I also agree with the nurses at your delivery 100%- you are the strongest young mother I have ever encountered, and I look forward to future stories of joy.
    Thanks so much for sharing and touching so many hearts.
    Krista

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    1. Hey Krista. First of all - congratulations on your pregnancy. I have seen some of Rebecca's pictures of your little guy and he is quite the cutie. I am so glad you've been able to remember to enjoy the "little" moments of pregnancy. Don't get me wrong - pregnancy down right sucks sometimes... but I am glad that you are reminded that every moment is a blessing... even the ones that seem like they are horrible.

      Thank you for following my blog. Maybe I will see you around sometime soon. I think I remember that you guys live in our 'hood.

      Fiona

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